
THE BALLAD OF ST. CATHERINE OF CLARE
SIXTY DEMONS
There’s a legend of a Wild Heart
Who cures illness when she sings,
They say she came here with an angel
And 60 demons in the spring
They say that anyone who hears her
Will be cured and born again
That if she touches you with her fingers
You’ll be forever free from pain
They say that everyone who meets her
Will fall in love and lose their head
Don’t make her fall in love with you, though
Because, everyone she ever loved, is dead
They say she’s got 60 demons
And that she’s doomed to walk alone
They say she’s got 60 demons
But, I’ve got 61
They say she got them from her father
And that she never will never find her peace
They say the demons keep her moving
But I will have them all released
I’ll let her demons dance around us
I’ll let my demons dance with hers
We’ll send our demons into battle
And we will break each other’s curse
I’ll kiss her gently and I’ll hold her
And I will love her bold and pure
And I will let her Wild Heart love me
And if it kills us both, well, will both be cured
They say she’s got 60 demons
And that she’s doomed to walk alone
They say she’s got 60 demons
But, I’ve got 61
A BOY NO MORE
When I was a little boy, all my role models, you know they were tough
They weren’t afraid of making a stand, crossing a line, or just taking off
They didn’t cry like little girls, took care of little babies and stuff
They brought home the money, they drank scotch, beat up the bad guys, and that was enough
And the women, they were being women, and took care of the rest I guess,
And then my dad left.
And there I was, all alone, with all the women, and they didn’t think very highly of men
And what they were doing to this world, and what they were doing to them
And my body, it was changing and there was nothing to be done
I didn’t like or respect men, and there I was, turning into one
So I guess I decided not to grow
Looking back now, it seems very similar to all those role models that I used to know
Little boys in big bodies
We make the same mistakes that we’ve made before
Well, I don’t want to be a boy no more
Cheat if we can, just to level the scores
Well, I don’t want to be a boy no more
Angry little boys, in big bodies,
All those scared little boys, in their big bodies,
All us hurt little boys, in our big bodies
But hey, don’t blame me for it wasn’t me, or my brother – it was my brother’s friend
And only because he had an asshole father like his father and their father’s before them
And so it begins again
We make the same mistakes that we’ve made before
Well, I don’t want to be a boy no more
Cheat if we can, just to level the scores
Well, I don’t want to be a boy no more
We want every piece of candy in the candy store
Well, I don’t want to be a boy no more
Looking for a princess who fucks like a whore
Well, I don’t want to be a boy no more
ANOTHER ONE LAST DRINK
My father didn’t mind a drink of whiskey
Just like his daddy used to drown his feelings too
And I know that I should listen to the warnings
But I just need one more last drink before I do
There’s an angel gently weeping on my shoulder
And I know a drink won’t make her go away
But it sure as hell will make me feel much bolder
So, just one more last drink to get me through the day
Chorus:
Just another, just one more
Just a drink to get me started for the door
Just the last one, just one small
Just another, one last drink, before I go
Come tomorrow as a bright new day is dawning
I will get my shit together, as they say
But today is not the day to stop the pouring
So, just one more last drink to get me through today
Chorus:
Just another, just one more
Just a drink to get me started for the door
Just the last one, just one small
Just another, one last drink, before I go
Just another, just one more
Just a drink to get me started for the door
Just the last one, just one small
Just another, one last drink, before I go
DO I?
How many stars are missing on a cloudy night?
Where does all the darkness go when I turn on the light?
When is tomorrow when today’s always around?
Why is my right still right, when I turn around?
So many things that I know nothing of,
like do I love the ones I leave or do I leave the ones I love?
Where does my patience go, when I lose my mind?
Why is winning always better, when I fall behind?
And why can’t I be quiet, when everyone else can?
Where does all your freedom go, when you turn into a man?
So many things that I know nothing of,
like do I love the ones I leave or do I leave the ones I love?
Why do my feet keep walking, when I want to stay?
Why can I only sit still, when you walk away?
When did I stop to listen, to the angels above?
Why do I love the ones I leave, why do I leave the ones I love?
So many things that I know nothing of,
like do I love the ones I leave or do I leave the ones I love?
Do I love the ones I leave or do I leave the ones I love?
Do I love the ones I leave or do I leave the ones I love?
I WANNA SPEND THE NIGHT
She sort of came out of nowhere
At least she didn’t come from anyplace where I’d been looking
And she didn’t look like she would have liked much it in any of those places, anyway
She had that irresistible life-can’t-touch-me-look
She pulled her eyes out of a torn old yellow paged pocket book
And she looked straight into my soul,
I couldn’t hide anymore
She said “Hey, soldier! Do I know you?
I just get that feeling, you know…just like we’ve met before?”
I mumbled something about that I would have remembered and started for the door
She said “please take a walk with me,
I don’t know where I’m going but I don’t want go there on my own, you see”
I said “Yeah, nowhere can be a very lonesome place to be,”
“Come on and hold me!”, said she
I wanna know before I get older
I wanna know before the night grows colder
I wanna know, I wanna spend the night
With you
I had someone waiting, that didn’t want me
Just wanted to keep up the scene of a happy little family
Playing the blame game, waiting for someone to do something about the nothing we’d become
I said “Look I’m with someone!” and she said “Yeah, you’re with me!”
And I don’t care about your tomorrow, or your history”
I just wanna know what it could be like…”
“if you would hold me!”
I wanna know before I get older
I wanna know before the night grows colder
I wanna know, I wanna spend the night
I wanna know if it could get any stronger
And I don’t know if I can wait any longer
I wanna know, I wanna spend the night
With you
So, I woke up in a stranger’s bed, more alive than ever wishing I was dead
Trying to come up with a reason to leave but instead
“Come on and hold me!”, I said
BADLANDS
He’s a priest of the storm, a disciple of fire
His silence is bitter, his silence is dire
The truth in his heart is despair and despite
So he’s walking the Badlands tonight
He remembers the nights that they sat by the fire
He taught her the secrets of lust and desire
Under star scattered skies with the bright moon above
She taught him the darkness of love
She wanted a child and she wanted a home
He longed for the desert to wander and roam
So he left her to search through the Badlands alone
For the truth that he felt in his bones
The wild worlds curse and the twisted trees groan
The demons they howl the ghosts whisper and moan
But the ghosts and the demons stay just out of sight
As he’s walking the Badlands tonight
The dark poisoned water, the old twisted trees
The pain in his heart and the ache in his knees
Getting old just doesn’t come easy
And the Badlands will never release me
The madman inside laughs aloud with delight
As I walk through the Badlands tonight
FEEL YOU TAKE ME OVER
I came to say I’m on my way
I’m leaving for a while
And trying to be a friend of yours
Would only be a lie
I know I can’t control myself
Whenever you’re around
And every time I see your face
I lay flat on the ground
And then you smiled…
Ref:
And I, I can feel you take me over
And I, I can feel you take me over (tonight)
And I, I can feel you take me over
And I surrender like a little child
I meant to say I need to heal
But then I saw your smile
You said the future’s open yet
So let’s not say goodbye
And then I smiled…
Ref:
And I, I can feel you take me over
And I, I can feel you take me over
And I, I can feel you take me over
And I surrender like a little child
I just let go of everything
As soon as you’re around
And I, I can feel you take me over
And I, I can feel you take me over
And I, I can feel you take me over
And I surrender like a little child
RIGHT, LEFT
My eyes keep searching for a door
To return to the darkness once more
I’ve sworn I’ll never lose this fight
But it still haunts me every night
I’ve never asked to be understood
I wouldn’t tell you if I could
If you had seen what I have seen
If you would go where I have been
I’m taking one step at a time
Right, left, right, left, right, left, right, left
Trying to leave the past behind
Right, left, right, left, right, left, right, left
I take another little step
Right, left
I leave a trail of pain behind
When I am running like I’m blind
And if your heart is one I break
Please, know it’s only by mistake
I’m taking one step at a time
Right, left, right, left, right, left, right, left
Trying to leave the past behind
Right, left, right, left, right, left, right, left
Right, left
If I build walls around my heart
That keeps our aching souls apart
It’s because I’m still lost in the dark
Right, left, right, left
But when I open up my eyes
I catch a glimpse of paradise
But then I turn from side to side
Right, left, right, left, right, left
My eyes keep searching for a door
To return to the darkness once more
I’ve sworn I’ll never lose this fight
But it still haunts me every night
THERE’S A WAR
There’s a war inside my body
There’s a storm inside my head
Always trouble heading my way
And I wish that I was dead
I have prayed to meet my savior
I have cursed the way of men
I have tried to build my castle
But I fell apart again
I have traveled down the freeway
I have walked the path within
I have crawled towards the tunnel
But I’ve never made it in
There’s a war inside my body
There’s a storm inside my head
Always trouble heading my way
And I wish that I was dead
I believe in doing good things
I believe I try so hard
But I don’t see how there’s winning
When I play these lousy cards
Love is all my lost soul longs for
But my heart just won’t stay true
And there’s no way I could tell you
Why I hurt you like I do
There’s a war inside my body
There’s a storm inside my head
Always trouble heading my way
And I wish that I was dead
There’s a war and I am losing
I am losing, my, oh, my
There’s a storm and it is growing
But am I prepared to fly
There’s a war inside my body
There’s a storm inside my head
Always trouble heading my way
And I wish that I was dead
BONES
MEMORY FULL OF DIRT
I wouldn’t say I came from nothing
I wouldn’t say I had it all
I wasn’t born to be a hero
And I wasn’t doomed to fall
But as the halftime whistle blows
This is what I’ve got to show
I’ve got a pocket full of nothing
And a memory full of dirt
I’ve got a pocket full of nothing
And a memory full of dirt
I’ve got a pocket full of nothing
And a memory full of dirt
I’ve gotta say I had my chances
I’ve gotta say I made my moves
I’ve had my share of loving ladies
But I just wish I’d loved them too
And once I conquered anyone
It was time to move along
I’ve got a pocket full of nothing
And an ego full of hurt
I’ve got a conscience full of faces
And a memory full of dirt
I’ve got a pocket full of nothing
And a memory full of dirt
I’ve got a pocket full of nothing
And a memory full of dirt
I’ve got a pocket full of nothing
And a memory full of dirt
BONES
Towers reaching for the sky
Leave only shadows on the ground
So the sun can’t see us cry
Alone
Building, cutting, beating time
Hiding from the light of day
Saving lives, by taking lives
away
The roads are straight, the walls are straight
within our walls we rule our faith
but crooked hearts can’t
sooth the storm within
So we break a man, we fake a man
sedate a man, unwake a man
to never have to fear his freedom sing
Bones on bones, rocks on stones
Fire, steel and led
Paved our hearts, chained our souls
Left our spirits dead
Left our spirits dead
Muted watch the endless show
Nowhere to run, nowhere to go
The only time we scream is when we dream
We stand in line for the hangman’s rope
Abandon faith, abandon hope
Sucking on our master's piece of soap
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Only living in our heads
We fear our lives more than our deaths
We drug our minds to keep us from our depths
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A shallow mirror is our goal
A perfect surface across the hole
To cover up the vastness of our souls
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Bones on bones, rocks on stones
Fire, steel and led
Paved our hearts, chained our souls
Left our spirits dead
Left our spirits dead
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If you can see through all the lies
If you are here to roll the dice
If you are here to change the world we're in
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Get out of line and take my hand
Let's run and scream across this land
Let's sing and dance until our spirits heal
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Let's feel the Earth, let's watch the stars
Let's see the beauty between the bars
Let's listen to the music from within
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Dive naked into waves of blue
And let your heart be naked too
Let all your dreams and wishes be your truth
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Bones on bones, rocks on stones
Fire, steel and led
Paved our hearts, chained our souls
Left our spirits dead
Left our spirits dead
NAKED FEET
The past is still an open wound
The future’s just a dream
My ego’s jumping slippery rocks in a crystal mountain stream
I cannot lose my balance now
I cannot lose my head
If I slip into the stream my clothes will turn to lead
I’d take them off it was warm
And leave them in the past
But shame and fear will cover me too easy and too fast
Too easy and too fast
Too easy and too fast
So still I jump the slippery rocks
And keep myself from sleep
But maybe if I stop and breathe I find the stream’s not deep
And maybe if I left the rocks
And walked the stream instead
With naked feet and open heart the doubt would leave my head
GOING NOWHERE
I’ve been searching for Sugarmen
And listened to TED’s
I’ve worshiped and conquered
and talked to the dead
I’ve been looking for truths in the lies that I’ve spread
I’ve waited and watched
for a magical me
And a castle of gold
where I thought I would be
I have visioned and missioned for a great destiny
But I feel like I’m going nowhere
I’ve followed my heart
and I’ve followed the signs
I’ve followed the pack
and the leader sometimes
I’ve been walking in circles, and standing in lines
And I feel like I’m going nowhere
I’ve asked for a dance
and I’ve taken a chance
With a foot in each door
and every twisted romance
I have taught all my teachers and studied myself
But I feel like I’m going nowhere
I’ve left and I’ve stayed
and I’ve worked and I’ve played
Been a demon for a decade
and a king for a day
I have learned to let go and to follow the flow
But I feel like I’m going nowhere
I feel like I’m going nowhere
I feel like I’m going nowhere
And maybe that means I am home
WHISPERS
These words can never be written
These words can never be sung
These words will break if you speak them
They can only be heard by just one
In a whisper
Whispers you only just hear
Whispers that tear you apart
Whispers that speak to your being
Whispers that open your heart
There are words much too strong to be spoken
They are prayers, they are names, they are spells
There are words, much too shy for the day light
They are words that can only be felt
In a whisper
Whispers you only just hear
Whispers that tear you apart
Whispers that speak to your being
Whispers that open your heart
From the tip of my tongue
To the tear in your eye
From a sweet summer rain
Whispers from a smile when you cry
In a whisper
Whispers you only just hear
Whispers that tear you apart
Whispers that speak to your being
Whispers that open your heart
From the tip of my tongue
To the tear in your eye
From a sweet summer rain
Whispers from a smile when you cry
From a heart that just bleeds
From the earth to the seeds
Whispers to a naked flower
To the mother of deeds
Just whisper
Whispers I only just hear
Whispers that tear me apart
Whispers that speak to me being
Whispers that open my heart
From the tip of your tongue
To the tear in my eye
To a sweet summer rain
Whispers to a smile when I cry
To a heart that just bleeds
To the earth from the seeds
Whispers from a naked flower
From the mother of deeds
HEY DAD
Dad, I drew a sailing boat today
Not as pretty as the one you made for me
I wish I could have helped you make the sail
But I know I’d only be in your way
Daddy, I scored a goal today
And I missed a few as you would have to say
I wished that you were there to see me play
But I know that you were busy far away away away
I know that you were busy far away
Daddy, I missed you today
Like the little boy you left so far away
I’ve turned in to a man, or so they say
I wished you could have seen me on the way way way
I wished you could have seen me on the way
Hey, daddy don’t leave me just now
I’ll try and make you proud of me somehow
Hey daddy, don’t take the sun away
Please, hide me from the darkness one more day
Please stay, please stay,
Tell me what to do to make you stay
Daddy, I cried a tear today
I know you never do, and that’s ok
I have to be a man in my own way
I hope that you can meet me there someday
Hey daddy, I just wrote this song today
I wonder if you hear it, what you’ll say
I know that I really can’t play
But I sing it from my heart anyway
Hey, daddy don’t leave me just now
I’ll try and make you proud of me somehow
Hey daddy, don’t leave me just yet
I’m still your little boy, please don’t forget
Don't forget, don't forget
I’m still your little boy please don’t forget
Don't forget, don't forget
I’m still your little boy please don’t forget